Secret Knowledge
children
asking permission
know parent’s answer,
“not right now,” means
thumbs-up!
Linda Baie ©
Secret Knowledge
children
asking permission
know parent’s answer,
“not right now,” means
thumbs-up!
Linda Baie ©
Thanks to Candlewick Press for this copy! |
Thanks to Candlewick Press for this copy! |
Places of My Mind
I hear the family’s tales and feel a pull to list them and write them down. They are who I am, the child of my mother, my aunt, my uncle—stories, stories. Down the streets we travel, relishing, embellishing. Here is the old firehouse, where baby Linda, spoiled by the nanny, sounded the alarm, made firemen come—a story forever.
Here is the corner, the Huff house. I know it well yet have never entered. It’s mother’s childhood story of loss in the Depression. Two families split the house down the middle to save illusions, to eat more than potatoes, to avoid worse.
Here is the grove on the farm—Pilot Grove—a guide to the place, announcing endings for some, beginnings for my family. It became a town! My great, great grandfather moved here from Virginia, to prove the land, and perhaps himself.
Over the hill is the farmyard, only known in spring because the daffodils still bloom. It’s where Uncle Billy stepped on the nail. Tetanus (lockjaw!) meant high fever, dark rooms, and children hidden away to mend or die. He lived—lucky for me—to teach me how to fish. There, the barn foundation. Grandmother’s horse Lady took her oats there—Grandmother made the town talk, no sidesaddle for her! When Mother took her first ride, her only ride, the ‘falling’ ride, she rose with dangling arm. Parents were grim with worry over the pain and the expense.
Now, back into town, see the front porch of the white house on Main Street. At four: “Linda, Linda, don’t play with that jar.” Broken, cut wrist, blood down the front of a newly ironed, starched, white pinafore. But also see the maple tree in the back, now reaching old age—branches holding dreams of a young girl, wondering who she will become.
It was a joyful ride to someone’s farm with my grandfather, year after year, driving his flatbed truck, others following, to find the town's perfect Christmas tree. One time it was my first time. I was finally old enough!
I know many stories of this beginning place of my life, and I am the only one left to understand, to know which streets, and which houses hold them. Who are-were-the Huff’s, the Brownfield’s, the Babbitt’s? If I don’t list them, who? If I don’t remember, where will the stories go?
remember
where daffodils grow –
there, stories stay
Linda Baie ©